I wish I’d never said what I said. I want to swallow something to make me sleep for eternity.

 I’m sorry I cry so much. I’m sorry I never listen. I’m sorry I cut. I’m sorry I’m not pretty. I’m sorry I get so angry. I’m sorry I take everything out on you. I’m sorry I talk about suicide. I’m sorry for scaring you. I’m sorry for showing you the side of someone you shouldn’t see. I’m sorry I could never give you things. I’m sorry I’m sometimes shy. I’m sorry for falling for you. I’m sorry for selfishly wanting you to stay.   I’m sorry you have problems and I don’t help. I’m sorry for making you look after me. I’m sorry for being moody. I’m sorry for saying selfish things. I’m sorry for hurting you. I’m sorry because you deserve everything and get nothing. I’m sorry because you’re perfect and I’m broken. I’m sorry for making you feel as if you can’t make me smile. I’m sorry we met. I’m sorry you fell for the old me. I’m sorry you’re now stuck with me now. I’m so sorry

Finally something felt beautiful

the deeper I cut
the prouder I become. 

whatever happened to rihanna when she first started singing she was like yee mista dj song pon de replay and now shes like fuck me with a shovel and slap my titties

That moment when in pitch black you hear someone smiling. You can hear their lips break and both create a crescent on their face. At that moment they are truly happy both inside and out, they aren’t smiling for anyone else but them self. Not smiling to prove that they aren’t depressed or sad or broken, just smiling because they can. Smiling in the darkness is more beautiful then smiling in the sun; it’s pure and true, which is what a smile should always be.
It’s finally setting free all the shit you kept tucked away, and having something over power it. You smile to yourself and know your insane, but somehow know it’s going to be okay.
You smile in the dark because you’ve finally found a part of you that can be happy.